not gonna lie, starting to second guess my decision to come down to Florida...the past week has tested me to no ends..
the lack of a job, friends, cash, and the feeling that i am under foot staying with close friends is starting to get me down. i have to admit that i lied to myself in order to get myself here...i let myself believe that i would have no problem finding a job when i arrived....in retrospect, this was a bad idea, and not at all being honest to myself.
i have spent the past 2-3 weeks pounding the pavement quite diligently filling out applications everywhere i could and trying very hard to get noticed above all the other people desperately looking for employment. shit is hard here...especially right now...seems as though i have arrived right in the middle of the down season around here...i got here when everyone else seems to have left...which is not making it easy to find a job...i keep hearing "we wont be hiring for the winter season for another couple weeks" over and over again, and my patience is wearing thin...
i also miss everyone in michigan terribly. my son, my mother, and the full circle especially. i find myself thinking of everyone quite a bit.
i hate feeling like i have made a mistake...maybe i just am getting discouraged that things have not worked out the way i was hoping they would...maybe i have to suck it up and make it work, somehow....i got myself here, now it's time to make something happen...but what happens if i cant make something happen...what happens if i got all this all wrong...what happens if somewhere, i made a wrong turn..
it's hard to not feel lost sometimes. I just hope that the path presents itself once again....and soon...because i hate feeling like this.
i am sure everything will happen exactly how it should...it usually does.....i just have to get right with it.
Sunday, August 28, 2011
Monday, August 22, 2011
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
The amazing place that is Florida
HOLY SHIT IT'S HOT HERE!!
I mean it. It's a "wall of heat that burns your skin as soon as you step out of the blessed thing that is Air Conditioning" kind of hot around here. And the Moisture in the air (to steal Greg's analogy) is like "having a seven foot linebacker leaning on your shoulders all day, just kind of saying 'hey buddy, how ya doin'?" ALL DAY.
But, those two grievances out of the way.....there is absolutely nothing bad to say about this place that is Ft. Myers, Florida. As a matter of fact, there is nothing that is not amazing around here. It is such a latitude change from anywhere I have ever traveled. Everything is new to me, I fucking love it. I still find myself just looking around, trying to soak it all in.
Last weekend, I had a great time as Greg, Judy, and Cari (Greg's girlfriend) showed me around the area. Greg introduced me to Downtown Ft. Myers, Ft Myers Beach, Captiva Beach, The Mucky Duck Restaurant (where Jude works), and many a bar along the way (the Hideaway is a great place, as is The Buddha). On Captiva Beach I witnessed the greatest sunset I have seen in at least 13 years. It was the second time that people on the beach actually applauded the sun as it finally dropped below the horizon. That moment reminded me that I had made the right decision in coming to Florida.
I mean it. It's a "wall of heat that burns your skin as soon as you step out of the blessed thing that is Air Conditioning" kind of hot around here. And the Moisture in the air (to steal Greg's analogy) is like "having a seven foot linebacker leaning on your shoulders all day, just kind of saying 'hey buddy, how ya doin'?" ALL DAY.
But, those two grievances out of the way.....there is absolutely nothing bad to say about this place that is Ft. Myers, Florida. As a matter of fact, there is nothing that is not amazing around here. It is such a latitude change from anywhere I have ever traveled. Everything is new to me, I fucking love it. I still find myself just looking around, trying to soak it all in.
Last weekend, I had a great time as Greg, Judy, and Cari (Greg's girlfriend) showed me around the area. Greg introduced me to Downtown Ft. Myers, Ft Myers Beach, Captiva Beach, The Mucky Duck Restaurant (where Jude works), and many a bar along the way (the Hideaway is a great place, as is The Buddha). On Captiva Beach I witnessed the greatest sunset I have seen in at least 13 years. It was the second time that people on the beach actually applauded the sun as it finally dropped below the horizon. That moment reminded me that I had made the right decision in coming to Florida.
Sunday, August 7, 2011
I am so happy. This journey and this destination were brilliant ideas. I havent stopped to write as much as I thought I would, but in all honesty, it has been hard to stop to write along the way...I was just having to much fun being in new places, meeting new people and constantly feeling like the new guy in town....because I was.
After I found myself at Cody Lake campgrounds, I had a chance to reevaluate what I might do from there..I spent two nights there, and enjoyed my time there very much. It was nice to have a chance to relax abit. I decided to take a train to my next destination: Lexington, KY where I had arranged to stay with my good friend Tom McCleese's Grandfather and his Cousin Paul.
I had an amazing time in Kentucky. That part of the country is truly amazing. The rolling hills and the rich, deep history that extends back to the beginning of our country fascinates me to no ends.
Tom's Pawpaw and his Cousin Paul were very kind to allow me to crash for several days as I saw the sights and arranged my next move. After talking to Paul and his friend Nick, I decided to take a flight from Lexington into Ft Myers, FL. They had informed me of an airline that offered cheap flights into Florida, and at that point, my road cash was seemingly disappearing day by day...so I decided to just get there as opposed to spending alot more time, and money, to get there..
flying is cool....blah blah blah blah.....
(I really do enjoy flying, but whatever I would write would just come off either all "it's so amazing, flying through the clouds, and all the people look like ants, and they even let me into the cockpit to take pictures, and it was so awesome".....or......it would come off all "fuck airliners for their offensive use of fossil fuels")
I took me alot less time than I had originally planned, but I think I really got exactly what I needed to from the whole trip to Florida. I saw alot of great places, met alot of very kind and generous people, and pushed myself a little bit to do something I have always told myself that I would do again, travel.
Next Posting....FLORIDA BITCHES!!!!!!
THIS.PLACE.IS.AMAZING.
much love.,
KCL
After I found myself at Cody Lake campgrounds, I had a chance to reevaluate what I might do from there..I spent two nights there, and enjoyed my time there very much. It was nice to have a chance to relax abit. I decided to take a train to my next destination: Lexington, KY where I had arranged to stay with my good friend Tom McCleese's Grandfather and his Cousin Paul.
I had an amazing time in Kentucky. That part of the country is truly amazing. The rolling hills and the rich, deep history that extends back to the beginning of our country fascinates me to no ends.
Tom's Pawpaw and his Cousin Paul were very kind to allow me to crash for several days as I saw the sights and arranged my next move. After talking to Paul and his friend Nick, I decided to take a flight from Lexington into Ft Myers, FL. They had informed me of an airline that offered cheap flights into Florida, and at that point, my road cash was seemingly disappearing day by day...so I decided to just get there as opposed to spending alot more time, and money, to get there..
flying is cool....blah blah blah blah.....
(I really do enjoy flying, but whatever I would write would just come off either all "it's so amazing, flying through the clouds, and all the people look like ants, and they even let me into the cockpit to take pictures, and it was so awesome".....or......it would come off all "fuck airliners for their offensive use of fossil fuels")
I took me alot less time than I had originally planned, but I think I really got exactly what I needed to from the whole trip to Florida. I saw alot of great places, met alot of very kind and generous people, and pushed myself a little bit to do something I have always told myself that I would do again, travel.
Next Posting....FLORIDA BITCHES!!!!!!
THIS.PLACE.IS.AMAZING.
much love.,
KCL
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