When it rains....well, apparently it also pours....

i feel like posting some of my earlier writings today. i haven't written stuff like this in awhile, so i wanted to share some of the old stuff with you, if you were inclined to be curious, that is....

these are some of my favorite scribblings.

enjoy.

A note to those who make decisions for the rest of us

if there is a god

you should all repent

you should all confess

all the sins you've spent

all the wrongs, all the lies

all the chemicals

that fill the skies

all the pollution

all the war

all this shit

yet you all want more

you have televised the death

to desensitize us all

the bigger they come...

fall big men... fall.

The devil's advocate

i cannot subscribe to any of this

i do not suggest we proceed

i don't feel the urge to carry on this way

i really don't feel the need

but sometimes the world, it just seems to spin that way

sometimes the planets all align

every once in awhile the right circumstances find themselves

and the devil's advocate wins his time

Half the shell

what you see is only

half the shell

you cannot see the place

from which i fell

you cannot see this energy

that grows within me

the creative juice

that flows within me

the inside conflict

that seems to haunt me

all the inside feelings

that seem to taunt me

all these things

make me the man i am

the good, the glad,

the sad i am

the bright, the dark,

the bad i am.

No one there to clap

my heart speaks in emotions

i just write them onto a page

i dont question it

i just translate the rage

i dont reach for inspiration

it just falls into my lap

i dont beg for the applause

because theres no one there to clap

Someday

im so tired

of waiting on

someday.

one day,

i want someday

to be now.

i want all

the loose ends...

to align,

somehow.

i want

all these things

and i want

them right now

i'm so sick

of waiting

i'm so sick

of someday

i'm gonna get

some "right now"

and make someday

go away.

The confidence I lack

i've lost my breath,

 i have to get it back

i have to replenish

all this confidence i lack

i need to get up

i need to find my way

i need to find some fucking sunshine

within this god damned day

maybe i need hope

maybe i need faith

maybe i need to see

that we all can be something great

maybe i need love

maybe i need hate

maybe i just need

to decide my own fate